Posted in Anxiety, Depression, Mental health

Who Knew…

Life is sometimes hard y’all. We tend to go through things that seem to be never ending. It’s always something, one battle after another.

On August 5th of this year my job received notice that our contract was not renewed as a Managed Care Organization with the state of Louisiana and our current contract we are under is set to end on December 31st 2019. I was actually off when they received the news. My phone was ringing like crazy, and I was getting text every few minutes. Honestly, my initial response was laughter. For some reason it was funny to me. I think my mind was so overloaded with everything that was going on with Jaime til I was just numb to whatever else the world had to offer.

Fast forward to today, I’m currently still working at the same job. Some of my colleagues moved on in fear of not having a job in December which I understand but my faith is strong. LHCC is fighting the decision of not being chosen as an MCO. At the end of it all, if things don’t go our way I know that my God has something more in store for me. Hell, I didn’t plan on working in this capacity for long anyway.

James 1:2-4 says 2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.

How great is that! Having Joy while going through only to know that in the end we will have learned how to operate in patience and have all we need.

Who knew that all my struggles would activate my purpose? The thing that I thought would take me out made me stronger. Who knew that my understanding for mental illness would be bigger than I ever thought? Who knew that I would put myself out there publicly showing my flaws and all? Who knew that I would want to speak in front of crowds in efforts to bring awareness to something that’s way bigger than I? WHO KNEW?

The key to winning battles is God. Once we realize it’s not our fight it’s his (God) we win.

– Hope